Blubro4822
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First of all this is probably a very different post from what people get on here, so I am sorry if my posting here as a female offends anyone but Reddit wasn't much help and I thought it's worth a shot
SOOOOOOOOOO...
Here is the context: I come from an ethnic conservative background. I even lived as a kid in my mother country for a bit. I always had the desire to do slutty things, but at the time, I was still too traditional and was afraid of any consequences I might face if my family found out. I also personally had mixed feelings about doing that sort of thing. This thought stayed with me all through high school and the first few years of university, after which I met the man I would date and be engaged to for the next half a decade or so.
I NEVER ever thought about cheating on this man, and we had a happy relationship that did include sex. I was satisfied, though of course still curious, and let my fantasies take hold of me a few times, though I always felt guilty after as I really did love this man.
Well, right as I turned 26, the relationship was over. After a month or so of focusing on myself, I realized that this is a great opportunity to get it out of my system, as I never had sex with any other man but him and I was always VERY curious.
But here is the problem: I have ZERO experience with this sort of thing. I never really went out, and my social circle has always been "good girls" who read books and watch YouTuber drama. I honestly legit don't know how to have fun or be a slut. I don't even know what to dress like. TBH, I do have some low self-esteem now because I did gain some weight; I wouldn't call myself a BBW, but I'm definitely curvy and voluptuous, if you know what I mean. To add to the difficulty, I DO live alone, but I live close to family as in, if I go for a walk, I will run into them so I have to be super discreet, even when leaving my apartment.
The same goes for being discreet regarding my social circle, as I don't want them to know I am experimenting with that sort of thing. Heck, I even have paranoia downloading Tinder, haha!
Any tips or advice on how to start would be appreciated.
SOOOOOOOOOO...
Here is the context: I come from an ethnic conservative background. I even lived as a kid in my mother country for a bit. I always had the desire to do slutty things, but at the time, I was still too traditional and was afraid of any consequences I might face if my family found out. I also personally had mixed feelings about doing that sort of thing. This thought stayed with me all through high school and the first few years of university, after which I met the man I would date and be engaged to for the next half a decade or so.
I NEVER ever thought about cheating on this man, and we had a happy relationship that did include sex. I was satisfied, though of course still curious, and let my fantasies take hold of me a few times, though I always felt guilty after as I really did love this man.
Well, right as I turned 26, the relationship was over. After a month or so of focusing on myself, I realized that this is a great opportunity to get it out of my system, as I never had sex with any other man but him and I was always VERY curious.
But here is the problem: I have ZERO experience with this sort of thing. I never really went out, and my social circle has always been "good girls" who read books and watch YouTuber drama. I honestly legit don't know how to have fun or be a slut. I don't even know what to dress like. TBH, I do have some low self-esteem now because I did gain some weight; I wouldn't call myself a BBW, but I'm definitely curvy and voluptuous, if you know what I mean. To add to the difficulty, I DO live alone, but I live close to family as in, if I go for a walk, I will run into them so I have to be super discreet, even when leaving my apartment.
The same goes for being discreet regarding my social circle, as I don't want them to know I am experimenting with that sort of thing. Heck, I even have paranoia downloading Tinder, haha!
Any tips or advice on how to start would be appreciated.
